TALASH-SEARCH

“TALASH – SEARCH”

When you say you search something, you must know what u r searching for. What for you are searching?  What’s going to yield after your search? What satisfaction you get after that search. Where you will go or reach after that search. This search varies from person to person from mind to mind from soul to soul.

Isn’t it difficult? Asking so many questions and what for? Stand alone in any busy street. Of course   you finish your job and necessary assignments and no one to disturb of few minutes or hour as much as you can give to yourself. It’s because you are searching and you have to devote time. Now observe characters around you. Try to read them, try to understand them try to ask someone, if he or she is willing to answer, What you are searching for ? . Your question may be difficult for him/her to answer.  But if he/she relax a bit and you can observe a big exhale of thousand gallons Co2 from system and first answer will be “Nothing” . Actually I don’t know ? . How to answer you ? Yeah busy for my livelihood, busy to arrange something, busy to carry some stuff back home, busy for my family etc etc. Difficult to get an answer why am really busy for or what am searching?  Another question?  Do you have any secret Desire which not fulfilled even today?  Ha Ha Again a difficult question and am pakka again you will get a long huh and answer will be very vague not relevant to anything.  After sometime as-soon-as you finish your tea or coffee your friend may want a permission to leave.

Then you became more disturbed and more annoyed as answer you wanted to hear or the process you wanted to follow didn’t take you anywhere. You seat in a chair, if it’s a sea shore then wow wonderful. Try to get answer alone from tides touching your feet or walking in sands and throwing pebbles in disgust to find answer to distances as much you can. Expecting as-if pebbles work like a boomerang and return back to you with concrete solution. No you get more disturb then you seat a while in cool breeze looking as long as you can towards horizon, milky white foamed waves one after another if you have chosen a moonlit night or else darken sea shore bombarding various intriguing question one after another in your brain the way waves bouncing in shore carrying no message and taking nothing with them.  If you are alcoholic then this situation may be more vulnerable for you as waves bounce sea shore and alcoholic kicks bouncing your head and forcing to find out some answer which you have only asked yourself.  Then you decide to come back to your room. Thinking to get peace in your chilled AC rooms, no sound, nothing.  But you failed to sleep. Suddenly you awake with silent AC breeze, you rush to your lap, or to your diary. You want to write something or you want to see something, to divert your mind to get rest. You do this till you get completely exhausted and your lap is on and diary is still open , your pen is thrown open and you sleep there in your working table till morning wake- up call wakes you up.  You take a small walk, a coffee or tea, freshen up, dressed up and rush to you work again.

However still “TALASH OR SEARCH” continues………… To some other day, to some other instances, in some other places when you force yourself again to find “What am searching for? “  

Its not imaginary to imagine a character like this in today’s world. It may be you, may be me. But the day wanted to search something relevant in your life believe me it’s not easy to get answer the way expect yourself to have for your convenience.  Its not flimsy also. Can’t you find character even after everything with them, they are dissatisfied? Can’t you have characters even after everything to find so called peace they search places after places and they don’t even get in their life time. Why this happen? Why success doesn’t ensure happiness always. Why peace which you want to have with you always elude you from your reach? Yeah am not a spiritual guru or a philosopher or a philanthropist. However this question of knowing yourself or knowing why you are alive or what you are doing and what satisfaction you get out of this always create excitement within me.  That’s what the name of this small initiation is all about. “Taalash or Search”. May be this initiation of mine can guide me to find a solution of all these thirsty characters, including me, to find some way to have a meaningful life.

You dearly want someone, sometimes you get her/him. Sometimes you don’t. If you failed to have that then again you search. If you have him/her then your quest continues to quench you thirst. Why so? Why even you get your love in your life even you search? Why even after Car, house, lovely wife, kids even then you search? You search what? Is it peach? Then what is peace? If everything is not bringing you peace then what can bring you peace? Various intriguing questions always disturb many of us. 1^st we settle down we enjoy one life we have with us. More time you take yourself to settle down the more pain you carry always with you.